1) unable to find ones way; not knowing one's whereabouts
2) denoting something that has been taking away or cannot be recovered
It's not often that such a basic and simple word encapsulates my state of being so perfectly. Since the election, since loosing my job, I have been lost. I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know where I am, and I have no idea where I'm going or where I want to go. I miss having something I believed in so strongly that I didn't begrudge the long hours, long days, long weeks, the work that never stopped. I missed working so hard, so furiously that when I got home my brain was sore. I miss being pushed to be better, to learn more, to be thrown into a situation I was unprepared for only to figure it out and do it well.
I don't like the place I am in now, and unfortunately nobody gave me a map to get out of here. I guess I have some exploring to do to figure it out on my own.
X Marks the Spot,